Stupid GD and Emotions

So I really don't like to cry.  I've never been the one to want to break down and just bawl my eyes, but it does happen on occasion.  I hate crying because it give me a horrible headache and it does not solve any of my problems.  Now I am not talking about happy tears or tears watching a sappy movie, I am talking tears of frustration.  For example, a few weeks ago my printer got jammed in a weird spot and after trying everything I could I just started crying and my husband came home to a sobbing mess that couldn't even articulate a sentence, OVER a printer people.  That is just ridiculous.  I did figure out the issue but I had to stop crying first, because really crying and thinking do NOT go hand in hand.  Then yesterday happens, I felt like a total failure.  First off I ate breakfast, which was normal and usually my blood glucose numbers look fantastic after, but for some reason they shot up yesterday.  So of course I was really frustrated, but I got over it and swore to do better.  Lunch was awesome and then dinner comes.  We had some salmon lightly marinated in honey and balsamic vinegar and spinach with a roll.  I am allowed 45 - 60 carbs at dinner and the roll was only 30.  There might have been a little in the honey, but considering it was just a little it should have been fine.  NO, wrong, this dinner totally spiked my blood sugar and left me in absolute tears.  I feel like I am not getting enough food.  I am absolutely terrified that my high numbers mean that this baby will have definite problems.  And what scares me the most is that I am trying my absolute best.  I can't wait to see my doctor on Monday and talk to her about this because I feel at a loss.  I am noticing that if I exercise for just 10 mins after that this helps, but yesterday after lunch I was so nauseated that I really didn't want to walk around although I did.  So now I am forcing myself to exercise after every meal.  Anyways sorry for the complaining, I am just super worried of the implications of not controlling my blood sugar.  I wish this would just get better.  Anyways today has been good so far and I am hoping that it will continue to get better.  I just wish it didn't have to be this way.  Thanks for all your wonderful support ladies.

Olivia