Needle Phobia

So before I ever entered the world of infertility, I had a fear of needles and I would be lying if I didn't say that it is still there.  Nothing has made me less afraid of needles that is unless of course you exclude infertility.  I remember the first bit of testing and how much blood had to be drawn and I hoped and prayed that I could just get pregnant with a little help and that I would never ever have to stick myself with a needle.  I found my prayers were not answered and hope would start to evade me in this regard.  What I soon found was resolve and the strength to do what needed to be done.  The only thing scarier to me than needles was the thought that I might not ever have children.  I refused to let myself be the reason for not having any kids besides at that point I had been poked so many times I really was not panicky at needles anymore.  To date I have stuck myself with 1 needle, dealt with too many blood draws to count, and am currently doing acupuncture.  I realize in less then a week I will be poking myself again and that does make me slightly nervous but again the thought of never having children scares me even more.
Until next time,
Olivia